So I'm at the gym, just finished a killer "kickboxing" style workout. We're in the "cool-down" part and on comes the song "Every thing's gonna be alright" (Alicia Keys) and I have to fight the urge to cry.
Why you may ask?
Well I left for the gym that morning frustrated with Jake for encouraging me to go. I wasn't mad because he said I should go, I was just upset because I feel like I'm always being pulled this direction or that, trying to keep everyone happy and keep up with every one's schedules. It's my personality. I am way too much of a people pleaser. I feel this overwhelming need to take care of everyone and keep everyone happy. I feel like I am continually falling short.
But like the song says, "I don't worry 'cause
Every thing's gonna be alright"
My garden died. I didn't water it. I guess I thought the occasional rain was enough? I have a really hard time with how we Americans use water. We use DRINKABLE water in our lawns and gardens. I feel like we are so wasteful with water. I really want to collect rainwater for my next garden, but make sure and not breed mosquitoes that way.
I realized I want to lose 40lbs, not 30. I am feeling WAY discouraged.
I normally feel like we have too much stuff, but lately I feel it even more. I feel the need for a major de-junking episode. Now that we have a drive-way I want to have a little impromptu garage sale tomorrow.
I really love my husband. I told him in a text awhile ago that he was the glue that held all this together and the oil that kept it running smoothly. I truly believe that. He is a really good man who puts up with a whole lot and takes on a ton of responsibility. I am grateful for him.
Life is good, but sometimes pretty exhausting.
I feel the same way...all the time. You are not alone. Thank goodness we both have amazing husbands!
ReplyDeleteLove you.
I love your realness! I think you've struck a chord and I needed to be reminded too. Thankful for wonderful husbands and YOU. Love you! Love your blog!
ReplyDeleteOh I love kickboxing. Keep doing it. So good for you! I thought about you today and your free child care gym. How awesome! I'd be paying close to $70 for any gym around here with childcare fees unless I volunteer and I so don't have 2 extra hours each week to volunteer for childcare as bad as that sounds!!!!! Hold on tight and keep you chin up. :)
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ReplyDeleteOh Caroline! You are seriously one of my favorite people. I wish y'all lived next door. What's Florida got that Nacogdoches doesn't? Oh yeah, law school. :(
ReplyDeleteYou and Jake are amazing and so perfect for each other. When I grow up, I want to be like you ;)
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You ate so awesome Caroline.I don't know how anyone can do what you do on a daily basis with such a great attitude like you have. You are truly amazing woman.
ReplyDeleteYou know, I think that you've become one of my favorite people through reading your blog. You're so honest and yet you have this incredibly positive attitude all the time. I think you are an outstanding mother -- I aspire to be as active as you are with your children! Don't get too down on yourself, you're doing a great job!
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