My Thoughts from Today

I'm emotional this pregnancy.  As in I've had a few times where I just start crying, for who knows why.  Today I started crying because I felt so frustrated with myself for being frustrated by everyone when no one was doing anything wrong.  Did that even make sense?

I have to click the lock button on the van clicker twice, even though it will lock with one click.  It takes two clicks to UNlock all the doors, but I must do two clicks for both locking and unlocking.

I'm having to switch my OB doctor.  It turns out she does not do deliveries, only prenatal care.  She will switch you over at the end to her partner people but I'd rather have more control over my situation than that.  So the search is on.  Luckily lots of people having/had babies in my ward (at church) so I've got a plethora of knowledge/opinions.

I coupon shopped this week.  I spent $184.85 and saved $317.30.  It was an awesome feeling.  All those super bowl sales and coupons just didn't see me coming.  It took two buggies to get my stuff to the car and the young checker guy kindly rang up my 121 coupons for my 190 items.  I was right at about a $1/item.

Malachi can now get out of his bed.  Aimi Lark gets up every single day WAY before the sun.  People wonder why I put my kids to bed at 6PM every night.  Well, they get up at 6AM no matter what so I might as well get my money's worth out of it. 

I am loving having my mom here.  I totally get live-in help now.  She is so helpful!  The kids have pretty much stopped asking me for anything and go straight to her.  I love this bonding time they are getting.  Malachi and my mom have gotten especially close, she understands his "cave-man" speech.  Mia is so cool.  She puts the picnic table in the living room, sets up "pallets" to watch a movie on, and reads books! 

 We'll forgive her for the occaional slip-up, like putting both Malachi's legs in the same leg of his pants when he wanted his pants on to play outside.  It was really funny, he was so confused.

Jake is making me so happy with how nicely he's doing in school as well as caring for his overly sensitive/emotional wife.  I just wanted to clean the house the other morning so he took the kids to the park for hours (and hours, and hours).  A quiet clean house was just what I needed to recharge my batteries, thank you hunnie.

I LOVE that Jake LOVES law school.  It makes me so happy he loves what he is learning/pursuing a career in.  Plus it feels like money well spent on his education.

I want 4 bedrooms in our next rental here in Orlando.

I want to rent out our TX house, that'd help a lot financially.

I want to snorkel in the Florida Keys and see the Civil War Fort that is there.

I realized just the other day, I'm having a baby!  A baby again in the house.  Malachi isn't a baby anymore really.  He walks and can communicate his needs for the most part.  I will soon be nursing again, I'm so excited yet so nervous about how it will change our whole household/family dynamic. 

I'm so glad Jake's training is now in August.  He's so perfect with newborn babies.  I'm glad there isn't a chance he'll miss the birth/new baby time.  He takes complete care of them.  Luckily I nurse otherwise I might never see the baby.

I'm still constantly stressing over Beau graduating.  He's doing amazing in school.  Seriously he has As in 5 of his 7 classes.  This is so great for him.  He just has this English teacher that can get me extremely frustrated and of course English 4 is a requirement for graduation and he barely passes even with all Jake's help.  It's exhausting.

Brody is really growing up.  I can't get over how young he looked just a short year and a half ago since he came to live with us.  Now he's sharing clothes with Beau, this morning he left for school wearing Beau's jeans!  He's really getting into scouts here and I'm feeling inadequate to help him, I'm learning though.  Plus our ward is great so they're helpful as well.

My sister in law Mandi is planning on coming down from GA for Solomon's birth.  I'm so excited.  It will be great to have such support.  My mother-in-law may be able to come as well, we shall see.  I feel so blessed to have married into a family with such a varied wealth of knowledge and wisdom.

Malachi's almost asleep, hallelujah, I need a nap.  My eyes are burning from needing a nap and the tears. 

Ok, have to be at the doctor in 2 hours, NAP TIME is a go!

Well after my nap I went to my appointment with my OB, I use the term my loosely.  I was at first super happy with the OB I was seeing.  She is great.  I was then informed she does not do deliveries, only prenatal care, what?  Then she was gone for my last two appointments.  These last two appointments I saw a super nice older Filipino lady OB who was filling in.  Not only was their a slight language barrier but the nurse told me she is well known for her amazing incisions with c-sections.  I don't want someone who does amazing incisions, I ideally would like to not to have an incision.  So needless to say my desire to find a new OB was even more-so pushed to the front of my mind the entire drive home from my 2 hour long doctor appointment. I cried, and cried, and cried some more as I held my belly talking to Solomon.  I want what will be best for both him and myself.  I am glad there are lots of girls in my ward I can talk to but I sorely miss my sister in law Ashley (a labor and delivery nurse) who knows how I prefer to deliver and can tell me just what OBs work well with my desires.  See, I told you I married into a family full of knowledge! 

Well the kids are FINALLY down and I have yet to eat dinner, better go find something, or better yet ask my mom to make me something yummy.  She's so good at that.