Shillig 4 Family

I find myself feeling more frazzled today about exposure to the virus. I flip between thinking our reaction if we tested positive would be something we could handle at home to, “what if they can’t take care of us at the hospital” and then I get scared. I think is LJ too small to handle it?  Am I exposing her when I nurse her?  Or am I helping her with the immunities in breast milk? I worry that by coming back to work I have exposed our family to unnecessary germs. But, if I don’t work I worry I expose our family to financial hardships. It is like you try your best and second guess it all, but normally I feel like I make the best choices. I just don’t like when there is not an obvious right answer whether it’s good or bad. I am just sad about all of this. I am just scared by all of this. I just wish the SBA would handle this by sending as many of us home as possible instead of keeping us here unnecessarily. It’ll be okay, it always is somehow. I just wis...

We have been social distancing for quite sometime now.  Officially since March 13 th but we didn’t go anywhere that week for spring break so it feels like 3 weeks since we left home.  I bought plenty of groceries and we love to be home together.  On March 18 th I said yes to coming back to work at the SBA and ended up starting the next day. Today, they reported the first case of Coronavirus (COVID-19) in the mailroom.  It is one building over, but I still feel like the exposure is greater than they are saying.  We still feel like it is okay for me to work here. We are trying to make the best financial decision for our family because who knows how long this situation with our economy and world will last. The kids school started reaching out this week to start back to school online on the 30 th so that adds in more moving parts, but it’s doable. I have the kids buddied up so that the girls can make sure the boys take care of their assignments....

This past week was spring break for the kids.  We decided not to go anywhere and lay low and have LOTS of friend playdates.  It was perfect, but then things started to change all around us.  The things we had been hearing about from China since January from Jake's Chinese contacts and friends, Corona Virus.  Schools all around us began to shut down.  We made the decision that no matter what our district did that our kids would be staying home from school.  We canceled Jake's birthday party and everything else we had planned for the weekend.  Then we got word, school was canceled for two more weeks.  I felt such a sense of relief and was overcome with a peace and happiness I had never felt before.  The world for me had stopped.  Everything froze and it felt different than the week of Spring break we had just had.  That week was full of doing and going.  This now is full of staying in and refreshing our souls while keeping the v...

 We had a good amount of snow (that didn't stick) but was fun to see and make a tiny snow man with. North Texas has some interesting weather that's for sure!

We had breakfast in shifts at the hotel so that Leila Jin could stay in the room.  She really loves white fluffy beds so we joke she likes to lay in the clouds.  We had some time to kill so we headed to campus for souvenirs.  (clothes and cinnamon bears to be more specific)   It's so fun to see how BYU is always changing and updating and staying relevant.  A picture with Cosmo the Cougar is always a must! As we were driving through rural Utah to get to Manti we saw this gorgeous snow covered field with gold.  Mali Su said it matched her and asked for a picture.  Her feet froze and Jake ended up with snow in his shoes, but it was worth it. Aimi Lark stayed in the car with Leila Jin so we could have this special one on one time with Mali Su.  I crave this time with my kids and I think that it's good for them too.  Mali Su had the sweetest spiritual experience as we were walking up the side of the temple to the back where t...

The kids made sure she had a bow on her head for morning drop-off. Even in her pajamas she wears a bow. Malachi's 5th grade field trip via charter bus to the caverns! Solomon went to see the nutcracker! He and Grace are in the same grade! I love their school!

"Oh I love her! Thank you so much mom for giving birth!"